All the time I spent thinking, planning, calling, e-mailing, will manifest into reality - a change of scenery, an opportunity to be a 'visitor'. Being at home these last few weeks has made me forget what it's like to visit a place, if it makes sense to say so. Much of my time back has been about catching up with friends, going to the places that we used to go to in high school, taking shortcuts where I know they exist. Tomorrow, I will plunge into a state of uncertainty and fear. Sitting on my deck writing this now already gives me a taste for these feelings. I am scared, of course. This is the longest trip that I have ever planned. It is also the most ambitious, and some may argue, the most dangerous (although I refuse to listen to horror stories from people who have never been to the places I am going to). In any case, it's about to happen and all I have to do is 'jump in'. In a way, that's the best part - giving yourself up to the uncertainties of what's to come. I'm a conductor, I like control, you all know that. But yet, giving up control of the situation can be such a rewarding experience. This is such a time. I am giving up control and opening myself to what comes my way. I've packed my backpack, uploaded my playlist, said goodbye to my family and friends, and now, written my pre-departure blog entry. Feels like my to-do list is finally complete. Wish me luck as I take on South America, one country at a time.
Next chapter...Caracas!!
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